approbation

So. I don't know if anyone still reads this, and god knows it's been a while, but I figured I should put up a little notice. I'm coming home.
In some ways I feel as though I've been defeated, but mostly I'm just glad. I've been dealing with some really really scary health stuff by myself for a little bit & generally freaking myself out about it & had a chance to talk with my parents about it in early November & I'm coming home. It's depressing to think that, for whatever reasons, I can't hack it on my own. Maybe that's the wrong way to see it, though--it worked until it didn't anymore. Anyways. I've actually stuck with my journal on tumblr, probably because I don't have to talk about myself or how I am at any given time and can just post random stuff that piques my interest. If you have a tumblr, or maybe if you're just curious, feel free to check it out. I'm also SUPER behind on any kind of holiday shopping and feeling kind of sucky. This year, I managed to not only postpone my brother's birthday (July 31) gift until Thanksgiving (and gave it to him without any fanfare/bells and whistles--at least it was a really sweet present though), but since my parents were away for my dad's birthday (October 16), the weekend I was home in early November was consumed with my health stuff, and my grandparents were... how can I put this delicately? barging in on our Thanksgiving, I somewhat awkwardly avoided the subject, and no one brought it up (holy run--on sentence, Batman!). I feel awful about it and need to make up for it. Honestly, I have a card and I was all set up to do it, I just... didn't. Which is a recurring theme lately. Blurgh. My last class ever at SUNY NP is on Monday. I don't really want to go into the scary health things, because it seems that's all I do lately, but let's just say that everything added up to making this semester suck incredibly hard.


So it seems that I needed to pour out some negativity. I hope all is well with anyone who reads this, or even those that skim it :D

Also: music-wise, this semester has been amazing. Trade-off wasn't worth it, though.

ALSO: I REDISCOVERED MY LOVE FOR AMPERSANDS. IT WILL NEVER DIE.

 So on Saturday, I got to meet my favorite author of all time, Neil Gaiman.  It was awesome.

I'm looking for a five year diary, which is a sort of journal that has a page for every day ie "January 1" and then like 4 lines for each year, so you just jot down what's going on in your life.  I can't stick to a normal schedule with any journal, so I think that maybe this would be a good change of pace, so that I could maybe have some kind of sense of how my life is going.

 meme from sexycereal 


Take a picture of yourself right now.
Don't change your clothes, don't fix your hair...just take a picture.
Post that picture with NO editing.
Post these instructions with your picture.

so yeah.. maybe I'll start posting here again. I switch journals like no other, but I never really end up writing in them. I'm starting a hard copy one, with cutouts and gorgeous things and in sort of a day planner style? I dunno. I got a sweet looking notebook/sketchpad from B&N's SCAD designs section, and I'm a little inspired. McC seems to think that it can only help. Working at VS is pretty OK but mostly stressful. Every time I have to go to work, I sigh and just think of how small my bank account is, and how I'll likely have to work at the Poughkeepsie Galleria (ugh) at their VS. I'm getting my wisdom teeth out next tuesday, and I hope I'm not all looped out. Ugh, all I think about now is earning money, trying not to spend it, and sort of passive-aggressively avoiding the phone calls from people at VS--after I put my number up to get more hours.  I don't really understand myself, and I like living away from home more than living at home, even with my own bathroom and all my friends here.  Don't get me wrong, I love hanging out with everyone, and when I'm away, I only dream of home, but... I feel like I go waiting from thing to thing, waiting to get home and be happy (and I am!) to waiting to go back and have fun there.  At home I feel a little smothered, but it's truly my own fault.

SHIT IS CRAZY. POST LATER.

Also, who thinks my icon would look hot as a cross stitch.

I DO.

I just have to finish my self portrait... which is about 1/7th done.

Is Logan trying to tell me what he wants for the holidays?



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I read the story.
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Don't you tell Charlie to play for four months? They opened the door. He is sleepy. That bartender forgives him his debts. That journalist kept the milk cold. I don't hate jumping once a week.


AHAHAHAHA.


WTF, I love my spam folder.

Join & Add me, bitches! I know Nida's already on it, but c'moooon.



Oh! Sidenote! I just found out that when I burn CDs from iTunes, the name of the Disc and Track Names show up on my car's CD player! SWEET

I GOT INTO COLLEGE! Evergreen State LOVES ME. And I got a scholarship for MY GRADES!

life is much better. I'm puttering on my computer, fixing it so that my downloaded audiobooks go in the audiobooks section in itunes, being nerdy, etc. I'm really tired. Last night I got rid of THREE trojans on my computer. It kind of freaked me out.

So basically, I'm supposed to be writing my election papers (2!) for AP Gov, I'll probably end up rocking them.. but my dad's getting serious surgery tomorrow, and I can't concentrate. Yesterday, in two hours, I got far enough to make a cover page.. for only one paper, and that was plain text. JEEZ. I am freaked and totally fucked, cause the papers are due tomorrow. Oh well. I recorded a dream for pysch. I couldn't record the one I had last weekend, it was too horrible, and even thinking about it makes me feel sick. Anyways, I'm off to go write. I dunno why, but no matter how long I'm away from lj, it always makes me feel better to write in it. I've not been checking friends pages or anything like that, so don't get your hopes up. I'm sorry if anything's big happened that I missed, but I really need to focus on this school bullshit right now. LOVE Y'ALL!

Oh, and I'm thinking of getting my hair cut really really short.. I've been passing around the pics, and to anyone at JMHS, just poke me in the halls, I normally have the pic in my bag somewhere.











OH AND I STILL HAVEN'T FINISHED MY COLLEGE ESSAYS WTF?!

Reposting one of my favorite posts, from earlier journal.

On being a fandom!whore
There are some things that it's fun to be in at the beginning of a fandom, have all the episodes, pictures, screenshots, of the fandom. It's fun to say that you saw it first, heard about it through your fandom groups, saw it on your fandom splattered computer. It can also be fun to join a fandom late in the game, as I have with Buffy and Angel. If you join in later, you can see ENTIRE SEASONS all in one go. You can't say you saw it first, but you can look at the millions of bytes of fanfic available to you, all rec'ced by people whose tastes you trust.. You don't have to wait for it to become popular, you love it, and that is enough.

Need a halloween costume? See what you dressed as for my haloween party!

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sendddddddd me files. Good music, tv shows, anything.

http://dropbox.yousendit.com/approbation

Up to 2 GB per file, 500 dl per file. FOR FREE.

Sooooo.. we just got a Mini Cooper COnvertible.. white with an auto black top.. tricked out too. Pretty sweet that we got it $9,000 less than normal cause someone changed their mind on what color they wanted after customizing.. SUCKERS. That just makes me sad cause I have to drive the 1990 Toyota Previa--banged up and MAROON!

Post a topic, list, category, whatever, in my comments section. (Examples: "Five Phrases Batman Will Never Say", or "Five Jobs House Wishes He Had" or "Five Things Dean Will Never, Ever Tell Sam.") Then, in a separate post, I'll post the answers to your Top 5 ideas, according to me. Serious or fun!

“This visage, no mere veneer of vanity, is it vestige of the vox populi, now vacant, vanished, as the once vital voice of the verisimilitude now venerates what they once vilified. However, this valorous visitation of a by-gone vexation, stands vivified, and has vowed to vanquish these venal and virulent vermin van-guarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition. The only verdict is vengeance; a vendetta, held as a votive, not in vain, for the value and veracity of such shall one day vindicate the vigilant and the virtuous. Verily, this vichyssoise of verbiage veers most verbose vis-à-vis an introduction, and so it is my very good honor to meet you and you may call me V.”

In other words, I'm home from Seattle/Portland, and I've found my college.

AHAHAHAHA I love picasa.

Physics times!
( stefanie goes crazzzzy )

and other times

( can you guess who I miss? )

HOW TO TICK PEOPLE OFF

1. Leave the copy machine set to reduce 200%, extra dark, 17 inch paper, 99 copies.
2. In the memo field of all your checks, write "for sexual favors."
3. Specify that your drive-through order is "TO-GO."
4. If you have a glass eye, tap on it occasionally with your pen while talking to others.
5. Stomp on little plastic ketchup packets.
6. Insist on keeping your car windshield wipers running in all weather conditions "to keep them tuned up."
7. Reply to everything someone says with "that's what you think."
8. Practice making fax and modem noises.
9. Highlight irrelevant information in scientific papers and "cc" them to your boss.
10. Make beeping noises when a large person backs up.
11. Finish all your sentences with the words "in accordance with prophesy."
12. Signal that a conversation is over by clamping your hands over your ears and grimacing.
13. Disassemble your pen and "accidentally" flip the ink cartridge across the room.
14. Holler random numbers while someone is counting.
15. Adjust the tint on your TV so that all the people are green, and insist to others that you "like it that way."
16. Staple pages in the middle of the page.
17. Publicly investigate just how slowly you can make a croaking noise.
18. Honk and wave to strangers.
19. Decline to be seated at a restaurant, and simply eat their complimentary mints at the cash register.
20. TYPE IN UPPERCASE.
21. type only in lowercase.
22. dont use any punctuation either
23. Buy a large quantity of orange traffic cones and reroute whole streets.
24. Repeat the following conversation a dozen times.
"DO YOU HEAR THAT?"
"What?"
"Never mind, it's gone now."
25. As much as possible, skip rather than walk.
26. Try playing the William Tell Overture by tapping on the bottom of your chin. When nearly done, announce "No, wait, I messed it up," and repeat.
27. Ask people what gender they are.
28. While making presentations, occasionally bob your head like a parakeet.
29. Sit in your front yard pointing a hair dryer at passing cars to see if they slow down.
30. Sing along at the opera.
31. Go to a poetry recital and ask why each poem doesn't rhyme.
32. Ask your co-workers mysterious questions and then scribble their answers in a notebook. Mutter something about "psychological profiles."